My Account of Living In Light
I'm totally stunned; our Living In Light Course was, far and away, the
most profound, most energetic and heart opening, en-Light-ing event or course I've ever organised
or been part of. And what is even more astonishing is the fact that the effects AFTER the course
appear to be cumulative and getting more powerful!
Before the Course even
It was amazing how as soon as we each decided to take this awesome step
into our light by signing up for the Living In Light Course, the decision in itself set in motion a
series of extra-ordinary happenings, well before the actual commencement of the course itself! We
were all clearly being prepared for Living In Light, from where we were, to stretching ourselves up
to the next level!
I myself had the sensation of breaking out of my mind. I began to feel
vivid realisations of how I have used restrictions in my mind (through taking on established belief
systems in our current world) to keep me limited. For example, I had a tremendous, cutting pain in
my head, particularly the back of my skull at the base where it joins with the spine. The pain was
so intensely and blatantly mirroring to me a deeper level of my own restriction, which is, of
course, incompatible with Living In Light. It was that I just had to let go of holding myself and
my reality experience so tightly in control. As soon as I did let go of this control and allowed
myself to feel free and self-empowered, the intense pain in my head instantly disappeared (and the
issue of control actually became quite an important theme for some on the course!)
Elaine shared how she was also experiencing huge energetic shifts and
disturbances too in the lead up to her Living In Light, feeling that she wanted to break out of her
skin into a more lightness of being and unrestriction in herself.
As for Martin, awesome changes and energetic surges seemed to be the order
of the day. They were cajoling him into the seeing with beautiful clarity that his most pertinent
challenge in his life was his holding himself back from experiencing unconditional love and ecstasy
of beingness. These issues, which are common to most of us in various forms (Love, Relationship and
Power), were all appearing the moment he decided to enrol.
These were all vital signs that we were ready for our momentous and
unanimous choice not to put our light, love and joy on hold.
And so we met upon the Thursday evening to break the
ice and get to know each other in intimacy and cosiness around our kitchen table and to enjoy a
gorgeous organic meal that I had poured my love into: huge bowls of fresh organic salad oozing life
(fresh from the soil from our friends at our local, and beloved Cusgarne Organic Farm) accompanied
by the sumptuous delights of a butter nut squash risotto with handfuls of sweet thyme and parmesan,
and laced with lashings of butter.
It was a perfect preparation for a big day on Friday, as we eased into the
spirit of why we were there and shared our aspirations.
The weather forecast for Friday was dismal, yet, joy
of joys, we were greeted by the sun blazing out over Porthtowan and so we started with a gentle and
opening meditation under the expansive sky on our rooftop-high sundeck. It felt like we were
already sitting in the sky!
The purpose for this first day was to bring up and release our greatest
challenges to staying in our light and it was such a joy for me to be able to rapidly assist and
give everyone some individual support, for which there was plenty of time as we were a small
And so our Course was founded on a series of deep powerful meditations,
leading us into more and more Light and Love, accompanied by sharing and integration, as well as
being beautifully balanced by the joy of exercise of walking in the surf and light.
A most tender moment for me was on one of our spiritual outings up and
down the cliff path, absorbing the light of the sun and its reflections as it was shining off the
water like fields of diamonds. I looked around at Elaine's and Martin's windswept faces and they
had that beautiful innocence: the look and joy of children bursting with happiness and zest for
life; I have never seen them so open!
Furthermore Mary (who was also on our course): I am astounded at you, for
despite your dislocated hips, you climbed up the East cliff to the most beautiful view at the top
of our Cornish coastline (90m/ 300 foot), and that's s no mean feat even for those who are normally
On Saturday the theme of the day was the Activation
of our Light. In the morning I introduced our group to our 'Flying Lessons': raising our energy and
frequency to the very tangible feeling of physically flying! We allowed ourselves to dive into the
sensation of soaring through the skies on our light and joy, so that we may take that momentum
towards incredible freedom in our lives: both an effortless flow and a very strong impression of
collapsing of time itself. We allowed ourselves to really feel this as we skipped along the
low-tide line at noon.
And even more for the afternoon... another beautiful meditation into the
joy of drinking in and breathing in the Light of our world and that great symbol in the sky of the
Sun, for energy, rejuvenation (this is how I am getting younger - yes I really am 50 this year!)
and for raising our frequency to the level of Ecstasy...
Wow what fun that was! We had an awesome moment when I was singing and a
large flock of swallows appeared and began to swoop, surf and sing loudly their twitterings on the
harmonics of my soaring melodies and then a very cheeky and rapturous robin began gaily to perform
a duet with me, causing me to burst into laughter into the middle of my meditation and song, bring
yet more light and feeling the harmony with our world.
So many amazing moments that day to cherish; particularly the awesome
experience of walking through the icy cold emerald water and etheric light to wade through fast
turning tide, to reach the sun kissed sands and magic rock pools of Chapel Porth, one mile up the
And Mary's rapturous face at finding her enchanted cave and the joy of
sharing it with us and so tapping into the magic that that’s so much her nature...
And Elaine, I love your humour and how you saw how acutely you had been
depriving yourself of fun, play and light, and now in the warm intimacy and loving energy of our
group you found your freedom again...
Sunday came with more wonderful integration on the
sundeck. Today was the day for fully releasing and opening and soaring in our Light. And later on
when I walked into our lounge I experienced an exquisite energy :there was this delicious silence,
bathed in peace and love; everyone looked like they had come home to themselves... They had found
their way home into their light !
For indeed they HAD...
Martin, that moment when you experienced the infinite you and it swept
through me (and everyone) like a huge tidal wave of love... I really felt the true You and it
And Mary - the wild, wacky and magical Mary. Stay wild, stay hungry for
chocolate in life, stay forever the wild child, opening up to allow to know the true you and we
love what we saw... You remind me of me...
Elaine you were touching and experiencing your angelic Self: so ethereal,
so beautiful, so light and radiating Light... breathtaking - I am so honoured to be your guide and
As we summed up and shared, many tears flowed and joy oozed from our
being, as we all celebrated our individual greatness, awesomeness and unlimited
And still the effect continues long after...
Even though I was 'running' Living In Light, I was most definitely
affected too! I, for one, will never forget this course. It helped me see my gift too: that I am a
wayfarer of the Light and it's my passion and my greatest love to help others into their light too.
A joy shared is a joy multi-folded and creates ecstatic ripples in our world, thus changing it into
more of our 'pure' reflection.
It opened up the most spellbinding, wondrous, magical and intimate
relationship with my world, courting even higher degrees of Love, light, explosive creativity than
I have ever experienced.
Further, I became privy to the exciting ecstasy and perception of other
dimensional areas with acute awareness and openness. I found myself accessing information that has
been cloaked under a blanket of fear and deception, but is crucial to our spiritual evolution and
advancement. Of all this, I will share more later..
And the effect still deepens: each day I find more and more insights
coming to me and being integrated into my physical reality with the effect of my whole life
Thank you, thank you magical Mary, magnificent Martin and ethereal Elaine
and an special thanks to my partner John; it was great to see the even deeper light in your eyes
emerging from your being and your joy and radiance at sharing your Truth with others in a live
group setting; I know we have been missing that! And to be the perfect balance and the other side
of me, bringing your infinite wisdom and brilliant acuity of delivery and perception of our True
Nature and enabling me and helping me with your invaluable support to run our Unique Course, which
was so much appreciated by all!
Thank you, thank you everyone for reflecting to me, the light of what I
am, and to assist you into choosing to remember and step into your greatness and glorious
I will never forget you and our greatest adventure into Living in our
And let's hear from our friends' thoughts
I am still in complete awe of the whole
weekend. It was a magical, transformative, amazing time. As I said on Sunday, I
knew the course would be huge for me and so it proved to be.... I felt privileged
to be a part of it and to share the space with such special people. I feel such
gratitude to you and John that, again, I am welling up as I write this. Profound
thanks to you both for everything.
I have so many special memories to
cherish.... sitting on the sun terrace, magical walks, enlightening meditations,
feeling safe to be me... and the food! So much more than just food, of course, more
like nectar to nourish my soul. I felt safe, supported and cared for all the
So many things are still clicking into place
in my mind; I can't really find the words to express it. Insights keep popping into
my mind and I feel I am on the verge of another big one today. Yesterday I was
catapulted back into work and did find I had some sad feelings... a bit like "will
anything nice ever happen to me again?" sort of thing. [But I dealt with it in the
way we had prepared and] I just sat with the feelings until they went, but I have
had strong yearnings again today to turn back the clock a few days!
I feel a very strong connection to everyone
on the course; it is like when you fall in love with someone and have to be away
Something else that is happening today is
that time has really become elastic, just like John described. Time is seeming to
expand and contract as required... amazing!
I am opening my eyes to a new way of being.
No more depriving myself or, as I like to think of it now, no more
I send you both all my love and gratitude
that you are in my life.
Hi Leela and John
I had such a great time on the course it was so wonderful and the experiences I had
were truly out of this world!
To experience myself and my energy so vividly was something i will never forget and
the connection I felt to you in that moment still brings tears to my eyes even as I
write this; so to say it had a profound effect on me is an understatement
The way you write in your blogs makes more sense to me now; that flow of words of
energy of such love - it was all there in that moment as I understood more of me
and more of you too.
What we shared was just soooo amazing, so I thank you from my deepest love.
I would be delighted to write more about my experiences for you to share with
I'll keep you posted! Much love
Martin x x
Just to say thank you for making me so welcome on
the course. It was really full of such "wow" moments for me. Particular ones being the
awesome meals you prepared for us with such lovely vibes, especially the magic risotto
and John's magic Kamut flour loaf. I loved sitting in your kitchen full of flowers and
bright colours. I also loved the beach walks and discovering the caves and rock pools,
loved your insightful meditations and discussions.
And, yes, I am acknowledging my wild, free
spirit lots more now!
I love your beautiful coloured clothes so
much, have realised how important it is to wear lovely colours. On my journey home
last week I bought a gorgeous cerise top at a shop at Liverpool Street
Thank you Leela and John
luv Mary x
Elaine at end of weekend:
I felt that this would be big and I have been
right: it's been absolutely massive!
It's brought me into the light and I feel
it's been an absolute privilege to be here. I thank you. It's been everything I
could have hoped for. The power of what you've both done is that you've just taken
us how we are and it's just come out of that. That's a real gift to have: to be
able to do that
I think having three a bit days has been
really nice! Having been on two-day courses I really appreciated the extra day.
I've felt like I've been able to go much deeper into everything and totally immerse
myself into it. And getting together on the Thursday evening the first for a meal
was really good for that ice breaking and settling in.
Mary at end of weekend:
It's really been truly a magical experience, I
feel I've been embraced at many levels and everybody in the group has made that magic
with me. It's been lovely because I feel like I've been hugged, but I've hugged inside
- and I've even been nurtured with the fantastic food.
I have been listened to you and perhaps for
the first time, I've been able to share with you bits of the real me, and that
means the world to me. You've made that possible, so I thank you. I didn't really
have any high or low expectations I just wanted it to be nice and comfortable and
get on with everybody, and I actually thought that was quite a high expectation
because I can be awkward sometimes, but it's just seriously been truly magical and
I thank you for it, you've just made that possible.
It's just been so lovely you've helped me be
the real me in front of everybody and that is incredibly rare, so thank you very,
Martin at end of
It's just been amazing; I didn't even look
through the course in detail I just thought I'm going to have to be there
anyway! As soon as you told me about it I knew I
wanted to be here.
It's just been.. oh I don't know... it's hard
to describe, I don't even know what's happened! It's been amazing: all the personal
things I've gone through and sorted.
It's been like a family atmosphere, very
relaxed very laid back, just amazing, and the food was amazing.
Thank you to everybody, it's been absolutely
brilliant. You couldn't ask for anything more for what I got out of it. I didn't
expect such a transformation: [discovering and experiencing my huge true soul self]
wasn't even on my list of things to sort. For that to come up was REALLY
The course was too short - it should go on
forever! But, two days would certainly have been too short: if something comes up
you need the extra time to deal with it too.
I'm getting all teary... a spiritual healer
said to me that healing's not important but showing you who you are is, and that's
what you've done for me. Thank you.